Lauren Conrad's LA Candy Book Review

Another book review, this is pretty different to my usual genre of book reading, but I feel like I might broaden my mind. 

Lauren Conrad’s LA Candy is about Jane, the classic girl next door and her best friend, the outspoken Scarlett, who move to Los Angeles for a fresh start. In LA they are lucky to be cast in a reality show that is similar to Sex and the City. The two girls’ friendship is tested in an unknown city dealing with back-stabbing and jealous attention seeking girls, boy problems and the ruthless paparazzi.

I thought that this book had a good pace; it was interesting seeing the backstage side of reality television, as Conrad highlights the issues that come with reality shows and how some of it isn’t actually real. The story line didn’t seem very original; it is very similar to her reality show The Hills. Also, the writing style is very average. There is nothing special about her use of language and it’s not very complex; it seems to be written for a teen demographic.

Overall I liked this book but it isn’t anything to get too excited about, and I might read the sequel someday. I would recommend this to anyone who likes Conrad’s reality show The Hills and I give it a rating of 3 and a half out of 5 stars. 

Relationships

Boy, relationships are nasty, and complicated, and usually never last. 


And oh yeah, I just realised that this will have almost nothing to do with relationships, lol. 


My story:
No, I'm not going to vent about a break up, or ramble on about a new boyfriend whom I love, but reveal my realisation about my so called 'love' life. But can I call it a 'love' life if I've never really been with anyone?


Anyway,
I'm currently 15 years old turning 16 in January and I've never had a first kiss, and I've never had a boyfriend. I use to think that at this age it didn't matter if you had done either of these things, but it seems the age gets lower and lower and the years pass on. 


All my friends have all experienced this, and honestly, I did use to want a boyfriend, really badly, and not because I felt left out, but because I just wanted to be loved. I've always kind of been a loner, even with 'friends' around me, and honestly, now I kind of like it that way. But I just wanted someone to see me for me and to really respect me, I guess we don't really get that anymore.


The older I got, the more scared I became that I would have no one. I've been at the same school for my entire life and everyone already knows who I am and that the people who don't want anything to do with me, don't have anything to do with me, and everyone who ever somehow 'liked' me in their meaningless tween existence (no that's not a typo) has realised that it's best to not act on it.


I've always been a tomboy, I may now be into fashion and stuff, but I still act kind of like a boy. No I'm not sloppy, or lazy, or smelly, but just straightforward, and being this way makes girls annoyed. I just don't want to have to act a certain way. I just don't play games, I mean what I say, and usually act the same around most friendship groups. 


So as I got older, I was sad that maybe there's no one out there for me, everyone just treated me like a friend who was a girl and that's it, nothing more. And there was nothing I could do about it.  


Although, even though I wanted all these things, I didn't go out to parties and hookup with random guys who told me what I want them to tell me, because A) I'm not stupid and I respect myself and B) I want my firsts to be meaningful, and I want it to be with the right person.


But don't worry, I'm not going to complain about how I'm a lonely teenage girl who wants to be loved. And sound like a bit of a hypocrite in that last paragraph. Funny is, I haven't even reached the main plot line, awkward. 


Back to planet Earth. Recently I met a guy, who is two years older than me, so he didn't really know me, he's really sweet and kind and is the first decent guy I've met. 


In the past, when I 'liked' someone, everyone somehow ended up finding out, I wasn't very subtle about it though, and it always seemed like they would 'like' me back, similar to all those advice columns in the teenage girl magazine: "they probably like you back!" NO wrong, don't act on it, you just end up being rejected, like I did. 


So this time, I acted totally normal with him and had a professional relationship, because the only way we knew each other was through a school activity that we had to do together.


In the past couple months, I secretly hoped that maybe I might have a chance, maybe something meaningful could happen, and maybe I'd have my first boyfriend.


I was pretty in over my head, other than the school activity, we never got a chance to hang out. And the school activity, was pretty professional. He didn't even hang in the same groups, I have friends in his year level but they aren't in the same circle. Nevertheless, he was still nice to me, and said 'hi' to me in the hallway (which is surprising because I've had an unfortunate incident with other year 12s in the past, let's not get into that now).


The thing is, the point to this amazing story, isn't that amazing, but it's a realisation that I've always known I should have, but I have never really embraced.


Maybe I just shouldn't care. It's not necessary for me to have a boyfriend, and definitely in my experience, things happen when least expected. Just like the John Mayer song, I'm happily 'Perfectly Lonely'.


I've always believed that if things are meant to happen, somehow you will know what to do to make it happen. And especially with boys, my previous experiences haven't been that great when I rushed into things, I usually got hurt and became an embarrassment. 


So I'm just going to let it be with this guy and just boys in general. Let's just see how things play out in my life, and let that be it. 


The end.


That's a huge story with a small significant lesson, but this realisation is pretty important to me, so I just wanted to let it out there. 

Growing Up & Society RANT

First I'd like to warn and introduce you to my new blog, it is the same blog but reincarnated. I'm not deleting any of my old stuff because I'm trying to start this new thing with no regrets, and not some crappy hipster stuff about living it young and going crazy, but taking everything as it is and learning from the mistakes and just move on. I'm not very good at this yet but I'm growing

Also, in this new rebirth of my blog, you will encounter crazy ramblings that don't make sense, no bother of proof reading, and no structure. And me contradicting myself all the time and putting out very hypocritical points because no one is ever who they say they are, and no one can 100% stick to their morals. Oh yeah, and some casual deep philosophical quotes dropped around casually. 

But this is my mind, unspent, never enough, but I'm trying to unleash some of the absurdity here, so I have room for more. (:

I feel that as I grow up, I loose part of my innocence, but I mainly lose my obedience of this fake act that is society. I still see the beauty in things, but I understand more how many lies are let loose in this world (thank-you Camus), and we can't stop them, even I can't. But at least I realise this.

Maybe 5 years ago, or 2 years or even 4 months ago, I was a major player in this society that is a lie, and honestly, everyone is. And because not many people realise this, we are all stubborn and juvenile.

I feel that as I'm growing up, my view of the world broadens, it hasn't necessary become free of innocence, but I have a greater understanding of how everyone works, and I'm eager for my thoughts to run free as I grow older and become more insightful with everything.

I'm not saying that what I'm saying is right, no way, and I'm sure if you don't understand you'd probably take a stab at everything I stand for, but who am I to judge? Who am I to tell you what to do? You can do what you want, but I will deal with it and continue to stand for what I believe in.

How did this turn into a rant? I don't understand my self sometimes, but no matter how absurd my thoughts are, they are still clear as crystal to me.

Another idea I want to touch base on, hipsters.

You will most likely understand what I'm on about if you use tumblr, you know that magical website where everyone posts pictures of things they like, I know it sounds completely boring and pointless, but honestly, I love it. It's so stupid, but it gives us another outlet, and sometimes I do find truly inspiring images, outside of all the hipster crap with skinny girls in exposing clothes and pouts.

Okay, so hipsters are defined as 'cool', and also apparently all the Australian tumblrs are hipster? WRONG!, judgemental people who jump to conclusions (notice that I actually just judged). I often feel that everything that is 'cool' is just fuel to the fire that is this society. Sometimes I wonder, how was it that 6 years ago, music that was 'cool' was pop music and now what's 'cool' is this strange techno noise?

You know what the common denominator is? They both usually have some sort of catchy tune that hypnotises people who don't have the ability to really choose for themselves, no matter how old you are, how much experience in life you have, we are all continuously bombarded with influences which often catch on and they're we're stuck, and we have no idea how.

All these companies that are liars and then create lies to get some cha-ching to help their consumerism lives (thank-you Arthur Miller) but there's nothing that we can do about it. And honestly, I often fall into the trap, yet I have found ways to actually be happy, but not all the time, although all I look for is balance.




P.S. I don't make any sense but deal with it (my silent anger)

Thunderstorms - My Musings

I've always been quite scared of thunder and lightning, gosh, I even use to be scared of car washes. But I always just told myself that nothing is going to happen, I'll be fine, it's only nature.

And that's right, it only is nature. Why is it that us, as humans are selfish as to be annoyed or agitated about storms or raining or even bugs, when we're the ones that ruined this world. Maybe we should be a bit more considerate and exist in harmony with all these forms of nature.

Whilst I do still find storms scary and unnerving, I think they are ultimately uplifting, this phenomenon that occurs in nature, the thunder and lightning, it's incredible.

These storms also create balance, they aren't as calm as days of blue skies but are inevitable and necessary on this earth, when it comes to balance, or yin and yang, I don't think of storms as bad, but different and often misjudged.

Storms remind me of everyone's opinions of moths. Why must butterflies get all the glory? Just cuz they're colourful? Compare this analogy to humans? I know how it feels to be judged by appearances, that's why I nonetheless sympathise with a moth, but also feel a connection with them.

I'm sure the moth hasn't analysed this as deeply as I have but anyway.

Thankyou for reading, what are your opinions on storms?

Amy

The year

This is so true! Haven't really been in a writing mood, definitely in the makeup mood. So I might share this picture that isn't my own, I found it on tumblr through am0ur on tumblr and the source is here.

So sorry

Hey guys,

I am SOOOOOO sorry I haven't posted anything in a LONG time, I've been super busy and I've just had TONS of stuff to do. Today I'm just going to show you some photos I've taken that I kind of like. Sorry about everything again.

Toodles, eat noodles ;D

Amy

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"Hold It Against Me" - Britney Spears

I'm sorry guys that I haven't really been posting, but this is just godly. Gotta love him <3
If I heard this first, I would've never made the connection to Britney Spears.

Today we saw Kimmi & Dave Days

There! That chica! Not the one scribbled out (that's me), but the other beautiful person, well she is kimmi A.K.A kimmitalks on YouTube (I should totally link every single word that has a website,YouTube ;D). Today her and Dave Days had this HUGE gathering in Melbourne, and a couple friends and I saw them both.

Kim Clijsters chided commentator Todd Woodbridge at the Australian Open

I just had to show you guys this, no surprises, just watch the video. ;D

My Birthday Post

I'M NOW 15! Wow, that looks weird. I'm not use to the number 15 yet, and I feel exactly the same way as I did last year when I turned 14, and I was just thinking "I DON'T WANNA BE 14, I WANNA STAY 13! Yeah, I think everyone goes through this (or maybe just me) every year.

Actually, I turned 15 on the 18th of January, except on that day and the day after (yesterday), I didn't get a chance to do my birthday post. Actually, I was thinking about what to put in this post a couple weeks ago, so I'm just going to go straight into it.

Okay, so for my birthday, before I decided to have a birthday party, one of my best friends, Hannah (who also has a blog here) gave me my birthday present early, and one of them was this book called 365 Reasons To Be Cheerful and everyday there is a story about some sort of unusual, funny and happy event in history on that day, and so I read it everyday and I love it sooooo much. Thank-you Hannah. Also, the story on my date of birth is about Captain Cook discovering Hawaii, and what a coincedence, I LOVE HAWAII FIVE O! So I thought that was an aawesome coincedence.

I will show you pictures of the story and book in my birthday present post. Also, I'm not sure which blog to put my birthday present post in, my beauty & fashion blog or this one, because my beauty & fashion post is kind of in the same concept as YouTube beauty gurus, because I wanted to do that but Mum wouldn't let me which is understandable; usually what beauty gurus do are hauls, room tours and stuff like this as well.

And what I actually did forget to tell you guys is that I have finally made a fashion and beauty blog, so all my future fashion posts will be there. If you think I should move all my old fashion posts there, I might do that. (: Anyway, the link is http://risingsun-fashionbeauty.blogspot.com so if you want you can bookmark that. ;D

I am also thinking of doing a post about the story behind the names of my blogs and my tumblr, because many people have actually asked me, "Why is your name Jesse & Me?" And I never revealed it to anyone, but there were little hints here and there, but I don't think anyone got it, so I might do a post on it when I give in to the temptation and mystery. Honestly, I suck at being mysterious, but everything I do has a reason and a story, not just cuz it sounds nice. Tell me if you would like this?

Also, I didn't spend my birthday alone, doing homework. Actually this super hot construction worker came over and we played mariokart. ;P



JUST KIDDING, you would think, me, Amy, would do that? Although, I do think Hannah is a very good looking construction worker. ;) But she just came over and we hung out, and she helped me decorate my room. Want a room tour? This blog or beauty blog? Maybe? (:

So that's it, bye ;D