Day Five

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

1. Caring about boys.
2. Caring about what people thought of me.
3. Acting differently around certain people.
4. Being afraid to go to the canteen (even though I still am).
5. Buying those two pattern t-shirts from Jay Jays.
6. Procrastinating.

Day Four

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. Shit, I'm hungry.
2. I feel like watching CSI: Miami.
3. Oh no, more homework that I must do.
4. That conversation today cracked me up.
5. I wonder what's for dinner.
6. Why am I so ugly?
7. You guys are just awesome! :D

Day Three

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Be nice to me.
2. Take the initiative to talk to me.
3. Look after me.
4. Be yourself.
5. The occasional romantic thing.
6. Actually think I'm something when giving a compliment, don't just say it.
7. Don't be too dramatic, lead a balanced life and don't come on too strong.
8. Be my friend who is there for me when I need you.

Day Two

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1. I am a daydreamer.
2. I play the violin.
3. I play hockey.
4. I like skiing.
5. I like food.
6. AWH are my initials.
7. I have two budgies.
8. I actually enjoy latin somtimes.
9. Nobody knows anything about me really.

Day One

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. To Katelyn: Who won the Saints vs Geelong game?
2. To Hayley: We need to plan the Melbourne Show outing.
3. To Allan: How was camp?
4. To Geoff: Whatever happened to us?
5. To Jonathan Togo: You are just plain awesome.
6. To Emily Procter: You are an amazing actress.
7. To Hannah: Are you coming to volunteering tomorrow?
8. To Kevin: Good luck on your exams.
9. To Jordan: Were you ever my friend?
10. To Mum: I love you. :D (But she's asleep)

Ten days

Ima do this and looks kinda fun. Although I might not have post everyday, if I don't get a chance. But yeah, I'll try my best.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

Is love just infatuation or is it real?

Could love possibly be just infatuation? It always seems so excessive and impulsive, like something acting with thought.

I’ve always thought that even Romeo and Juliet may just be infatuation. And I know this is a long shot so please don’t get all upset but I always thought that they just rushed into things too much. It’s was all too quick and it felt like the head over heels type of thing. It didn’t seem rational.

I think real love is being in a loving relationship. You can never have too much, you always need a balance of everything, like in food nutrition. As quoted in All Time Low’s song Too Much:

“We were so smothered in love, we didn’t have a chance to come up for air. What a waste. Where did our time go? Where did our minds go? I don’t know. … Too much of anything is too much. Too much love can be too much. We had too much time, too much us and we fought like tomorrow was promised.”

As well as Shia LaBeouf:

“There’s a difference between being in love and being in a loving relationship. ‘In love’ is infatuation. ‘Love’ is when that love dies down and you’re just there.”

Often, the best relationships are the one’s between friends. There is never too much love, it’s never too intense, but there is love between two people that care a lot for each other. It may not be as passionate although they must be more than just friends for it to work, but often these are the most successful situations.

This is shown in Valentine’s Day, now I don’t remember the names but Ashton Kutcher’s character’s friend’s marriage works because the couple started out as friends. He does mention this in the film.

I also believe that even though tons of people my age (I’m 14 by the way) have boyfriends and say they’re in love and stuff but I don’t believe that that is fully possible at this age, I believe that most relationships at this age are based on infatuations and that’s why most end pretty quickly. But some that don’t end are maybe just long infatuations but I don’t believe that they are in proper relationships.

Proper relationships require one big thing that isn’t much of an issue to teenagers, and that’s commitment. Commitment is really important in ‘grown up’ relationships and people often breakup because of this but at our age, that’s not a big issue. For teens it’s just having a couple that like each other and that’s about it. Sometimes there might be a bit more but as my mum said:

“At this age, boyfriends are just like more than friends.”

I know there are people that just hook up and that’s also infatuation, all those people want is some fun with some guys you aren’t close too.

And I’m also not trying to say that couples always have to start out as friends, sometimes for some people that isn’t the best option, some people who are too close as friends may occasionally have something more, and try it out but sometimes it doesn’t work because they are just too close as friends. This has actually happen before to myself.

I’m sorry if this whole thing bored you, it was just an anecdote of my thoughts that make me question stuff. If you don’t like it then that’s not my problem, unfollow if you want, but this is me.

But I do have no intention in offending anyone and this post wasn't directed at anyone particular.

This whole post about love was totally random but I have always wondered about this. And I know TONS of people will have totally different opinions to me, and I would love to hear them.

Now, I know tons of people who read this don't have blogger connect with my via my facebook or msn (if you're my friend IRL) or tell me on my ask page on my tumblr.

Cheers,
Amy

There once was a girl who had a secret crush

She thought the guy was amazing.
She thought he was cool.
But he was three years older,
And she felt like it was against the rules.

She never told anyone,
Because she didn’t know what they’d think.
So she kept him her own little secret.
Her own little secret crush, that tickled her pink.

He was super cute,
And looked like a guy from AAR.
The resemblance was uncanny,
And he also played the guitar.

One day he smiled at her,
It made her feel surprised.
No one ever smiled at her.
She felt happy inside.

She wished one day she could meet him,
But she never got the courage to say hi,
Never got the chance to greet the one
That made her want to fly.

She even made up a fantasy
That one day he would meet her.
That he would like her out of all the girls,
And he would recall the first day he saw her

He liked her personality,
The way she laughed, the way she spoke.
He accepted her with flaws and all,
And loved the times when she made a lame joke.

His friends all thought she was great,
And they thought she was fun.
A witty girl, great for him
As well as never dumb.

They loved the random beats she made,
Even the music she liked.
They thought she was pretty cool too,
And When she found out she was psyched.

She wasn’t popular,
She thought no one ever thought she was cool,
So the way these guys acted
Made her more confident in school.

He loved her even though she thought different,
She thought he deserved better.
But to show how he really felt,
For her he wrote a letter.

He said it didn’t matter who was better,
He loved her for who she was,
Because fate brought them together
And he wanted them together just because.

This group became best friends.
Nothing else mattered whatsoever.
They all had endless moments of fun and love,
And both their love lasted forever.

-This is a true story.
(I just turned it into a bad poem.)

Happy Endings, Chapter 2

Warning: Not good for people who can't stand cheesy love stuff.
Hello, this is chapter 2, written especially when I was away in Kakadu. Also written on my best-friend's birthday. 19th August, late happy birthday Amanda! Enjoy :D

HAPPY ENDINGS, CHAP 2

First, let's recap.
Ebony had been dating Tom for a while and it got boring so she broke it off. And then she met this super cute guy called Jack at the bar during her first solo gig but then Nick and Tyson, visiting Australia again, caught them two making out.

Let's start.

Nick's POV

Tyson and I had come back to Australia. The last time was so successful musically and personally so maybe we might get lucky again.
We had come back for another gig. I tried to invite Eb but she wasn't answering her phone.
We were making our way to the rehearsal room and guess who we saw. Ebony making out with some random guy, it was full-on.

I couldn't believe my eyes, I mean I know I wanted her to move on but not that quickly. Two guys in two months, unbelievable. She already told me about Tom and I thought he might have been good for her, you know, to forget about me. But I guess Tom wasn't enough and now she needed some mystery guy.

Suddenly, Ebony caught sight of me and stopped kissing the guy.
"What's wrong?" The guy asked her. He turned around and saw Tyson and I.
"Uhh. Sorry, but we've booked this room." Tyson said, awkwardly.
"Don't worry about it Ty. We can just find another room." I added, angrily. I turned around quickly and walked away, Tyson following me with his head bowed.

"Wait! Nick!" I heard Ebony yell.
"Yes?" I asked, trying to pretend that nothing was wrong.
"It's not how it looks." She explained.
"It's exactly how it looks. Was Tom not good enough for you? Or are you cheating on Tom?"
"You know that's not me."
"Then what's going on?"
"His name's Jake. I just met him today, he's a bartender." She replied with a guilty look on her face.
"Here?"
"Uhh, yeah." She said, quietly.
"That definitely doesn't sound like you."
"You don't know anything."
"What are you talking about? You just said that I knew you. You sound like such a hypocrite. You seem to have changed tons. Are you really still the same girl I fell in love with a couple of months ago?"
"No! Nick, I didn't change."
"Then what are you doing with this random guy? And why are you changing your mind so much and acting so defensive? I thought you were with Tom. And how come you haven't been talking that much online and on the phone anymore? How could you act like this when you knew I was coming?"
"I'm incredibly sorry about everything. I feel terrible about it. I never meant to hurt you in any shape, way or form. I didn't intend on any of this happening. And I actually had no idea that you were coming."
"I called you so many times when I arrived. I wanted it to be a surprise."
"Oh, I'm sorry, I changed numbers. I needed a new plan for my phone."
"This is exactly what I though might have happened. Why haven't we been talking anymore? You know how I feel about you and I know how you feel about me. What's been going on?"
"Nick, I just couldn't do this anymore. It was like an attempted long distance relationship and then long distance friendship. It just started getting stupid."
"Stupid? Are you kidding me? I love you Ebony!"
"It just didn't feel right, doing things this way. And it was too hard for me to grasp the reality that you were gone and that I might not ever see you again. I'm deeply sorry."
"Look, I came back so we could maybe start again. All I want is to be with you."
"But the reality is that eventually you must go home and I must stay here."
"Then why can't we just do it once again?"
"Because I can't stand saying good-bye. It's too hard watching you leave and trying to repair myself. You know, I never really got over you. I never truly moved on."
"Then what was Jake? And Tom?"
"Jake was just a moment of weakness, an impulsive decision, and Tom was just there for me, when you weren't."
"I was there!"
"Not really, come on, be realistic, you never were, it never would've worked."
"But we can figure something out eventually. Right now, let's just go back to the way we were. To what matters the most."
"I don't know if I can do it Nick."

Ebony's POV

What am I doing? I love him so much. But I really should stay away. I can't bear him leaving again. It's just too hard for me.

"It's too hard Nick." I persisted.
"But I love you so much and I know you love me too." Nick pleaded. He made a slow step towards me and gave me a comforting hug.

All the feelings and emotions came rushing back. In my head, all the memories were replaying in my head: when we first met, our first date, playing music together, going to the Gold Coast, our last date and saying good-bye at the airport. It was all so amazing and I had some of the best times of my life. I don't know how I can not go back to him. I mean, it's Nick. It's always been him.

I've read somewhere that hugs can not only be between lovers, but between friends. They can sometimes show that someone is there for you and that you are comforted, and this was it. Him hugging me, me hugging him, just knowing that he was there for me was all I needed, the feeling was incredible.

Happy Endings, Chapter 1

Hey my extremely small amount of readers,
Well, I don't know if you have realised yet but I have changed back to chapters and also I am extremely sorry that Chapter 1 is extremely late, that's because I wrote the preview near the end of the school holidays and then school started and I didn't have a lot of spare time, but today I had a big empty day of just hanging around, so I decided that I should type this. But I'm sorry, don't expect the next chapter to come any time soon. So yeah, just a little boring insight into my very boring, repetitive but busy life. Anyway, now for Chapter 1. And also, this is in 3rd person, omniscient point of view. And I shall start with a recap.

Happy Endings, Chapter 1

Just in case you missed the last season, Time Stands Still For Us, here's a little recap:
Well, basically Nick and Tyson arrive in Australia and meet two incredible chicks, Ebony and Erin. Erin and Tyson had a summer fling that included Tyson's jealous ex-girlfriend to fly all the way down to Oz and cause Tyson to cheat on Erin with her, Danielle. But Erin's ex, Alistair was actually seeing Danielle behind all the scheming. But in the end it was a successful summer fling.

On the more tearful side, Ebony and Nick met each other and instantly fell in love, they were love birds, soul mates. Tom, Ebony's guy best friend got in the way occasionally considering he also loved her, but she rejected him. Ebony and Nick found it really hard to leave each other but Nick had to go home. But just as Ebony left the airport, she got a call from Tom. DUN DUN DUN. Okay, I know it's not that intense but whatever.
Now let's start with the story.

It has been a couple of months already, Ebony seemed to move on from Nick and started dating Tom. Although, in her heart she missed Nick incredibly and could never love a guy more, but her head told her that she would never see him again and that she should move on, and that's what she tried to do.

Of course, Tom was more than happy, but Ebony was still very vulnerable. Even though Tom was ecstatic to have Ebony as a girlfriend, he was a horrible boyfriend. He never knew what to do, I mean, of course being a first time boyfriend, it was tough for him, but he didn't even have any common sense. Sometimes he would just be too much, he would even call her when he just left 5 minutes ago. It extremely annoyed Ebony so she told him to back off (in a nice way). And then he just wouldn't talk to her for a week. He was surprisingly stubborn for such an intellectual guy and sometimes was just plain-right stupid.

During this "off-week," Ebony had gone to play a solo gig, it never felt right on her own anymore, without Nick and Tyson but she needed some extra cash, and she still wanted to play. While she was grabbing a drink by the bar, after her show, she met someone new.

"Hey, you're brilliant." Said the mysterious and sexy bartender.
"Thanks. You're good at serving drinks." Ebony replied.
"Haha, you're a cute little one." The man replied, with a cute smile.
"Thanks." Ebony thanked, giving herself a little giggle.
"Well anyway, I'm Jack."
"Hi Jack, I'm Ebony."
"That's an amazing name."
"Really? You know it just mean's black."
"But black is mysterious, it's classy, sophisticated and sexy."
"That's a good way of looking at it."
"I know I said this already, you really are an amazing musician. You voice just blows me away. Did you write that yourself."
"Mhm."
"Wow, well, it's terrific."
"Thank-you very much."
"I was wondering, would you like to hang out after my shift, it's over in about 10 minutes. And you could show me some tricks or play me something."
"Sure, there's a pretty good hangout spot backstage, and I could show some tricks with the tech stuff, and you could help me set out in the future." Ebony replied, beaming.

She wasn't sure why she was so agreeing, but it was just impulsive. He could have seemed like a bit of a creep to the usual person, but any girl that met him and his compliments as well as his brooding exterior, sexy face and body, would be weak at the knees and lose all common sense instantly.

While backstage, Ebony and Jack were having a great time in a rehearsal room, he didn't seem to be much of a creep after all, just really into Ebony and thought she was fantastic. Bonus for her, he was just absolutely amazing. They were going great, getting to know each other well, everything was clicking perfectly, Ebony couldn't have asked for a better night (except with Nick, but he was almost forgotten).

Ebony also was trying to teach Jack some guitar, she was holding the guitar with Jack embracing her but also trying to play the guitar. She was holding his hands, teaching him to strum. She felt the heat and so did he. She looked up as he looked down, they froze holding their hands on the front of the guitar, and then they leaned in for a kiss. Jack took the guitar away and leaned it against the wall. They turned around and started kissing passionately, it became intense. His hands were wrapped around her waist, and her's were playing with his hair.

All of a sudden, the door opened as two guys stood their with extremely surprised looks on their faces. Ebony and Jack looked up, with faces that looked like they were just caught in the act, like a thief caught with his hands in the till. And then Ebony realised who was standing in the door way and a wave of guilt swept over her face. It was Nick and Tyson.